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Sunday, February 26, 2006

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 15:58:03 GMT

im watching t.v....im sooo happy im losing weight cuz im sick and tat means im not eating!( im aloud to starve since food is nasty rite now ) yaaaay i'll be sooo thin whooppeeeee ^_^ lalala but i am kinda sad....still miss u know who...u ont know cuz i didnt tell u! oh well some things were meant to be kept secret....rite???spanish guys are hott! (raandom) me and cami and aly are gonna be in a band we r looking 4 keyboardists and bassist and just in case, we'll need a guitarist. our style is like tristania and like the b-day massacre, no stupid stuff. we r like the elegant gothic band heehee

die die die die die die die die die die die, its sooo cold in here die die

vibeke is sooo hott

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 02:19:49 GMT

i miss my mom sooo much......i want to live with her after the fights i deal with at home, if i could, i would kill to find a spell to live with my mom and still live around where i do...though pennsylvania is pretty cool anyways my mommmy should have custody of me and isnt she pretty>????? heres my mom when she was littl (to the left) with her kid sister. here is she and her prettiful self haaaaahaaaaa wish i looked like her....it sux

do we look alike??? well my hair is shorter now, but still....know wat i mean??? *wink wink*

in the house of blue

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 20:09:54 GMT

i have orange highlights yaaaayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!numm i have some blonde spots too *blush* shows how bad my highlights turnd out.....but i like it anyways soooo there! i miss the feeling of being happy.....it seems like i am but internally im just not...ive been writing alot of poems lately but i dont want to share them at the moment...i hope i havent fallen in love with the wrong person..

Hilary Duff is a Nazi!!!! click this >> http://hdsucks.tripod.com/sitebuildercontent/sitebuilderfiles/hailthisnaziland.wav

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 20:46:09 GMT

i was cami's with aly

<<this is our hostage

<<i'm on the phone

<<she's burning in the light

<<she's pissed, yayy

lol bye

Friday, December 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 15:56:00 GMT

the ring ooooooooo awesome ehh??? i have two of those dolls....the 1 with the red dress and the one all the way to the left...heehee

skool is BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw heres a poem i wrote...its called nightmare...

Nightmare

you see the pain painted in my eyes

behind all of your fucking lies

the shock that never ends

4 every waking moment i spend

not wanting 2 revisit ur nightmare.

now i know my scars wont heal 2nite

4 i will see the fright when i close my eyes.

i dont want to see your light.

where has my beloved gone?

hes nowhere in sight.

so now i will lay down and suffer your nightmare

the one you gave to me, wishing i couldn't see...

plz find me...

thats me and my mom when she came down to visit meh! yaaay!!!!!!!

im bi!!!!!!!!! plz someone tell me it isnt wrong and comfort meh

Friday, November 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 20:43:15 GMT

funny ^.^ && i got my HAIR CUT!

<<haha

<<i like fuzzy pictures!

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 12:29:32 GMT

ahhhhhhhhh life will be the death of me bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the world is against me and no one can save me......i need to smell the violence i need to see you bleed, take me inside ur soul and make it weep for me... man i love that line OTEP ROX!!!!!!!!!! but thats how i feel most of the time.....

im seeing steven today for a report card scam muahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!

do u think i should get my looong hair cut? cuz im doing it this friday but just to make sure im not making a mistake plz someone help me out....cuz i might get it cut like this grl... but just a tad longer, wat do u think? because my hairs down to my lower back.

wow this is really random huh?

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 17:06:26 GMT

well this day sux like hell....i realize how much reality has set itself on our lives, that love really is suicide. and the one day we all die....orion i know u told me i'll be fine but it doesnt really feel like it, and i feel really bad about ur situation. like i said i'd let you stay with me if the situation was that u lived around here...im glad u commented 2.

anyways

-blessed bethey are hott

heres the lyrics to the video i have rite now

They say
They don't trust
You, me, we, us
So we'll fall
If we must
Cause it's you, me
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us
We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know
It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)
It's all about us

If they hurt you
They hurt me too
So we'll rise up
Won't stop
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us
We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know
It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)
It's all about us

They don't know
They can't see
Who we are
Fear is the enemy
Hold on tight
Hold on to me
'Cause tonight

It's all about us
It's all about
All about us
There's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)
All about us
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a theme that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)

It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)

It's all about us

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 12:45:43 GMT

i have a comfort and thats orion....thank u.....anyways ive been cutting and doing all i can to make this suffering go the fuck away but u know wat? it wont it just keeps coming bak each time i awake from my sleeping, it usuallly helps me escape reality, to dream. maybe im a lost soul i dreamt last nite that i was with angels in a wintery world i wonder what it was trying to tell me.....maybe thats where i'll end up? i dont know but being there made me happy safe and not alone, my thing is that i hate feeling alone....

everyday is dead

everything is black......im sure u all know thats otep, and its my favorite line

im sorry

sweet voice silence and sang beauty calm nice . sight so alluring, see you my love, see you in the morning. put me in mind and in sight. farewell my love and forever goodnight

a poem of feeling lost without you, my comfort, my blades..

heres me and myself ugh....and heres camishes prettyfuler than me AHHHHHHH SHES SOOOOO LUCKYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sniff sniff* ok ummmm and......even tho im the sacrifice, u wont cry for me not now, tho i'd die to know u love me....im all alone....isnt something missing? isnt someone missing me? im done now....

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:55:55 GMT

"No One Cares"

With Depression and Thoughts of Suicide
Trying to get through life can seem impossible.
Trying to get help can be devastating.

god im soooo depressed my family is crazy cuz my mom is probably not gonna visit me this x-mas and my dads being a bitch as usual yelling at me and everyone else, tho wen he yells at my mother thats wen i draw the line, my mom rox my dad and his slutty ass gf can die and burn in hell, watch ima put a spell on them to change their unfair way, they call me stupid and shit! omfg it pissess me the fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!! and steven is driving me crazy too....why couldnt things go easier between us huh? at least make that good (me n steven) if not my family because maybe i could count on steven wen my ugly parents bring me to hell sumtimes rite???

ummm cami wassup? heehee im random

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Well here you are

at the edge of the abyss...

at the beginning of infinity

heaven or hell

an afterlife

or a nothingness

forgiveness

or an eternity of suffering ?

Does anyone really know ?

Why have you come here ?

What do you need ?

To Find a Way to Live ?

or To Find a Way To Die ?

Here is a cup of pills

with the power

of life, and death.

What would you like these pills to do for you?

Some of you want to take them to die.

But I ask you now...

how many of these pills

would you take each day to live ?

To feel good, normal good, like everyone else ?

Stable, not depressed, even happy, but normal ?

These are some of the pills I take every day to save my life.

I feel happy, I feel pretty good, I feel normal.

I am grateful.

Lots of other people are doing it too.

And these are not herbs or antidepressants

But Nobody´s ever knew - no bodies

No body´s felt like you - no bodies

Love is suicide